I'm off to the OC!

(Old Chicago pizza... to see Ben and Colleen and eat dinner.)

"i woud writ mor, but th kybord iz mizzing importnt kyz..... :'( i
try to phon zoon.

hrt,
mtt"

awww.

Things I really ought to get done today.

1. Go to the Q bar for my interview.
2. Do the dishes!! Really!
3. Mail Rent.
4. Write Matty a letter.
5. Finish cleaning apartment so I can move my dresser in this week.
6. Febreze the couch because it smells kinda weird.
7. Get laundry ready for tomorrow.
8. Straighten up bookshelves and my desk.
9. E-mail Zane and see when the next time we could possibly arrange an Iowa City visit.
10. Finish cleaning out closet/packing up Matt's stuff
11. Call the Sprint store to see what I need to do to get either a new phone or a working charger.
12. Start getting Matty's next package ready.
13. Clean out my fridge
14. Make grocery list/actually go grocery shopping.
15. Fix throw pillow that is spewing feathers everywhere.
16. Organize all my make up and hair stuff.
17. Put away Matt and my heavy winter clothes.
18. Consider rearranging the living room a little bit.
19. Make arrangements to go home tomorrow.
20. Organize my stupid shoes!

And now I'm off to shower and get ready for my Q bar interview! Wish me lots and lots of luck!

I like this random little frame at the top of livejournal pages with my livejournal options! It's very nice!

Leela and I are relaxing because my interview got cancelled. Because the manager called in sick. Which I find really amusing because I saw him out on a bar crawl last night.

Rob, Chad, Justin, and Kismet just left for Des Moines, and we had lunch together at Pancheros before they left. It was really awesome to see them, because it's been a LONG time since we all hung out. I missed the Kismet a lot. We used to hang out ALL the time. We all had some really awesome times. It was fun to see all those guys again.

Also, fun to see ZANE! At around 3:30 on Friday Brian and I began getting ready to leave for Davenport to pick up Zane. We managed to actually get on the road at like 4:30. So, we went and found Zane's apartment, which is SUPER cute, and picked him up and headed back to Iowa City. We drove around so I could show Zane the remains of my old apartment where we used to hang out all the time, then Brian dropped us off at my apartment and Zane and I went to John's Grocery and got a bunch of PBR. Then Brian came back and we started drinking beer and watching Seinfeld. Around eight we headed over to the Mill, and stopped at the Buzz to say hi to Dan. I think we may have scared the person whose hair he was cutting. Zane and I went up the window and waved at him and Dan started jumping up and down and then came RUNNING up front and we all had a hug-a-thon. Dan said he was almost done, so we told him we'd hold him a seat at the Mill.

We got to the Mill and found seats and talked to Stuart for awhile, and then talked to Rob and Kismet. And then Zane got to meet my mom and my little sister and Renata and Miriam and Mary. Soooo... then Zane and I decided to run over to Studio to get wristbands so we could go back and dance after the concert. Then we went and hung out at the Mill and watched Stu. It was a good show and I'm so glad that Zane FINALLY got to see Stu.

After the show we went back to Studio and hung out and danced until about one. Then at one we went back to my apartment and drank some more of our PBR and had a pizza and went to sleep. Good good times.

Saturday morning we took Zane home, and then I came back to Iowa City and spent the evening with Rob and Chad and Kismet and everyone. Then I went over to Brian's and we watched the third season of Scrubs. Then I came home. And... at four AM, Matty called! Wooooot! So I talked to Matty for a long time, and went to bed. He's going on a mission today and I'm scared. Boooo Army.

Still, I get to see Matt super super soon. June! Vegas! Good times! Yay!

We talked for a LONG time, and it was super nice. I'm so excited to see him. It's going to be a ridiculously busy two weeks. We're having a welcome back bar crawl, and possibly a bachelor party bar crawl for Matty. We'll be in Iowa City for as much time as possible, but we also have to go to Madison for at least 5 days to spend time with Matt's family. Plus, four days in Vegas. I think we may also be having an engagement party at my parents house, but maybe not, because I don't want to put up with it.

I'm super excited for the beginning of this week, because Matty sent me a package and I can't wait to get it. I sent him a package on the same day, so I'm hoping he'll get that soon, because I sent lots of treats and some pirates. Because I figured he may not have enough pirates in Iraq.

I think that a bunch of us are going to Mickey's on Wednesday in our ongoing mission to hang out places other than Joe's Place and Ben's apartment. Yay branching out! Woo!

And now, I am off to my parents' house to hang out. Yay hanging out!

P.S. There's something in my wall. It sounds like it's about Leela sized. And I keep hearing it moving around and thinking that Leela has somehow gotten inside the walls, but she's sitting next to me so it's not her. Stupid scary animal in my wall. Grr.

I am in SUCH a good mood!

Matty called tonight! He warned me on Wednesday that he prolly wouldn't be able to make any kind of contact once he got overseas, since they'd be at some base in kuwait. So I was prepping myself for two weeks not being able to talk to him at all... then, tonight at like 10, he called! wooot!

It was really funny, because I'd seen Kristie at studio, and not even realized it was her, until I heard shouting in the alley, and I look out and see this girl punching her hand... and I'm like "omg! Kristie!" So, I wrote Matt an e-mail about it (because... we're going to be inviting all of her friends to our wedding, and I know Matt would like her to be there (he said he wasn't sure, but I know that she should be), and I would like her to be there... but there's so much random animosity...?) but then he got to call me like five minutes after I sent the e-mail, so we discussed. I felt really bad, because she text messaged matt's phone, which is currently my phone, so i texted her back to tell her matty had already left. I didn't realize til after I did it that it could prolly be interpreted as really bitchy. doh.

Ok. I'm gonna go back to watching friends/going to sleep with my itsy bitsy doggie. Goodnight!

I'm in Mississippi! I'm about to repack all my stuff and go complain at the front desk!

This hotel is WEIRD. About half the rooms are nice, well maintained, your general Howard Johnson type rooms. The other half are ... safety pinned curtains, cigarette burns on every surface imaginable, bent wire hangers, weird smells and in one case, a bizarre really wet chair. I guess they figure all the guys here have been living on base for the past six months and won't care. But, also, everyone here is spending like... a shit ton of money because nearly everyone's here more than a week.

I didn't really have a problem with my room until this morning, when it became apparent that the lining of the curtains has been completely destroyed by cigarette burns. Also, the bath tub is VERY questionable. And, someone who booked WAY after us has the kind of room that we wanted, and supposedly have been on a waiting list for since like... Christmas. And, then, someone else complained, and got moved to another room like the one we wanted.

The south so far is weird. People are either really nice, and very considerate and helpful, like amazingly so... or they're complete self centered jack asses. No one knows what's going on today, I guess I'm supposed to go on base at three? but then Matt actually can't LEAVE base until five? I don't know.

I DO know that the people who have been walking by my door/gigantic drafty window since six (it's set up like a motel, all outside doors with like, walk ways) need to LEARN HOW TO WALK IN A STRAIGHT LINE. It is possible to walk past a door without walking INTO it. Same goes with the window guys. I know we're on the third floor, maybe you're trying to stay away from the edge with the questionable railing, but clinging (loudly) to my door is not the way to go.

Hopefully once Matt gets here things will look up, because as of now, I'm exhausted because I spent over twelve hours traveling yesterday, running through airports, getting rerouted, flying in TINY ass little planes (not even jets, prop planes) in really fucking high winds and listening to children scream on every single flight. THEN, I get here and it's shady, and now I've been up since six am because people don't know how to fucking be quiet. I'm sick of it. I don't like our hotel room, it smells weird, the staff is useless, and half the people here are cocky, dumb as a rock, military officers.

I think I can make it til five (or three? I don't want to go onto a military base... bleech.) There are SO many military girlfriends and wives here, and I really don't forsee any of them getting along with me. These are people who hear from their boyfriends once a week, yet would (and have) still drive 28 hours to Hattiesburg for a POSSIBLE one day break.

Whatever, I don't care, I GET TO SEE MATTYCAKES IN LIKE.... A FEW HOURS! I could be staying in a tent and I would still be ecstatic. I'm only bitching because I've been here a whole day, and I'm like... 15 miles away from him and have been stuck here by myself. But, that DOESN'T MATTER! I get to see him today!! OMGZ!!

(this is my post from mississippi that i never posted, what?)

I am officially (mostly) packed for Mississippi! One gigantic suitcase (to be checked) that has all of me and matt's clothes, one smallish pink suitcase (also being checked) that has all my shampoo and lotions and shoes, a small pink carry on that is just big enough to stuff my laptop in, and still have room for other important carry on type stuff. Then, for my second carry on, I have... Leela!

I reeeeally don't like flying. Boo-urns. I also hate checking luggage. I've never had an airline lose my luggage(mad knocking on wood), but I'm so terrified of it happening. Also, I have like nine million layovers (well, two. Cedar Rapids to Minneapolis, Minneapolis to Memphis, and Memphis to Hattiesburg).

Alright, I need to go get some breeeakfast (I'm so freaking hungry), and run a few little errands... then my dad's picking me up at 10:30 to take me to CR. Yay yay yay!

Leela's being so good this morning, I hope it lasts all day, because today's gonna be rough on her. She won't eat her tiny little breakfast (she has to eat light before we fly), and I know she's gonna be hungry later and I'll be sad. AUGH! I didn't pack Leela's antibiotics. I'm going to do that RIGHT NOW.

Lalala! I get to see Matt tomorrow!

I'm a moron, I left out the most exciting part of today.... Renata came down to Iowa City from Grinnell! I met up with her and Miriam at the java house, then we walked to the best Thai restaurant in Iowa City... Only to discover that they close between lunch and dinner, so we had an hour before they opened. Alas. So, we went to Pancheros instead. Which, although wonderfully tasty, is not thai food. after we ate we went to prairie table, this cute little kitchen store place, where renata and miriam browsed, and I talked to the owner about chihuahuas. I wanted to go up to ben's (he lives up above the cute kitchen place), but he was at work. boo. So, after that miriam had to head off to work, so renata and I walked to miriam's car so she could get her target purchases out of the trunk. then we walked to john's grocery so i could get wine, then we walked back to my apartment and watched scrubs until renata had to go back downtown to catch her bus. renata did NOT bring a coat today, despite the fact that it was FREEZING out, so all day she was like "so cold! so stupid!" poor frozen renata.

Jason and I have made a pact to each pick a rent cast member, then do our very best to sleep with them. I will keep you all updated.

my neighbors are being really loud and it's making leela all panicky. she actually barked. she never barks. shut up neighbors! I know that these particular neighbors have a three year old daughter, yet they're SO loud, and it's the adults, not the daughter being loud. and they're up all late, and i see them bringing her home from wherever at like two am. weeeird. and they annoy my dog. bad neighbors. my dog rules our building, so you will shut up!

I am a bad blogger and a bad livejournaler. Usually I ignore Livejournal, because blogger is so obviously superior... but lately I just don't blog at all. I wish I had a decent excuse, but I don't. I'm just going through a blogging slump. My past several posts on blogger have been like... one line. I suck. Sorry.

Also, all I ever want to talk about is my Leela, and I doubt everyone wants to hear about how ridiculously cute and smart my chihuahua is.

Hmmm. News... What is new here...? Not a lot. I need to clean my apartment, as usual. Leela and I are flying down to Mississippi on March 8th to see Mattycakes. Leela's even going to be able to come on base for the family picnic! I totally should have bought her that camoflauge chihuahua shirt I saw the other day. That would be hi-larious. I am such a crazy dog lady, you can ask anyone. I even have a fake dior dog carrier. I don't bring it out often, because i'm already embarrassed that I carry my dog everywhere, I don't need people thinking I actually spent $1500 on a dog carrier. It's a fake from chinatown in LA, and it's pretty convincing. I only use it when I'm feeling bitchy/like i'm paris hilton. I do bring her regular dog carrier with me everywhere though. And people will come up to me in stores and be like "I see you walking with her all the time! She's so cute!" I'm totally going to become known as "megan with the chihuahua" which is better than "megan from studio"... but still.

Has anyone seen March's InStyle magazine? It's GIGANTIC. I just got it in the mail today (actually I think it came earlier this week, I just never check my mail). I'm excited to read it, but it's so huge that it's kinda difficult.

I've been compiling the Ultimate Scrubs Mix CD over the past few days. Since, while I like the Scrubs soundtrack, there are SO many songs that aren't on it. I heart Scrubs. I also heart Zach Braff, but I'm sure he's really not as cool as I think he is. I bet he's prolly gotten more Hollywood since Garden State came out and was the best movie ever. I don't even like admitting that I like Garden State, because everyone I meet is like OMGWTFBBQ!!! GAAAARDEN STAAATE" and I'm embarrassed by it.

I hereby vow to blog or livejournal at least once a week. Or, at least try.

leela 053
Originally uploaded by veryloudbeep.

Date:	2006-01-03 16:50
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	listless

Leela (Matt and my new puppy!) and I are watching Sex in the City and thinking about ordering Chinese. Though, the Chinese place I order from stopped taking checks, and I only have $5 cash. Maybe Leela and I will actually walk to the other Chinese place... I want to go to Prairie Lights and spend my gift certificate, but Leela can't come with me if I go there. Sad face.

It's been so nice having Matt back the past two weeks, he left yesterday though... I miss him already... He called this morning when they got to Camp Shelby, I guess he's technically on leave until midnight tonight, so he'll prolly call pretty soon. I really ought to go downtown... I just don't want to leave Leela at home by herself. It'll be less than an hour, and she's sleeping anyways, but she gets so sad when I leave. It's worth it because she's so happy when I get home... But, still.

The apartment's starting to look clean again now that Matt's gone... It wasn't SERIOUSLY clean when he got home, and we said we were going to clean every day... But, then we'd do something fun instead. Why waste time cleaning when he was only back for 12 days? I don't get to see him again until March... and then it's only for like four days. I'm flying down to Mississippi (with Leela) for his four day pass before he actually goes to Iraq. Anyhow, the living room's looking good, it's all puppy proofed and whatnot... but the coffee table's moved over in the corner because we had comforters on the floor for Leela so she could burrow around in them, and I could lay on the floor to play with her without having to lay on the wood floor. The bedroom's a whole other story, there are TONS of Matt's clothes everywhere... I don't want to clean in there yet because it means I have to pack all his stuff up and put it away. Plus, Leela likes leaping around in the piles of his clothes.

Ok. I'm going to go to Prairie Lights and get some books. And while I'm downtown I'll get something to go for dinner, and come home and eat with Leela. Alrighty. I'm off.

And Jason, you'd better be back from work when I get home! I totally had something to tell you, and I forgot, so I'm gonna think about it while I'm downtown.

Dear Harold The Wonder Dog,

I'm testing to see if your friends page is working correctly!

Love,
Megan

p.s. Usually a post this random at this hour could be attributed to drunkeness, but not this time... this time it can be attributed to jason.

Date:	2005-03-27 15:05
Subject:	recap
Security:	Public
Mood:	full

i re-read my entry about friday night, and noticed how many fun things i left out. so, i'll just repeat myself and go more in depth. and you'll all just have to put up with it. bitches.

so, like i said. matt and i went to hy vee to get booze. we got captain, and some hard apple cider stuff for joe. it took me forever to find the hard apple cider, and i kept going in and out of the walk in cooler with my bottle of captain. it was all hidden in the corner, but i finally found it. because i'm soooo good. then, at the register, there were little mini bottles of cherry and blue uv. and they were on SALE! for only $.49! and i still regret not getting some to carry around in case of vodka emergencies. doh. aaaaaaaaanyway, matt got the coke, and i got the booze, and we headed back to his place. once back at matt's, there was much playing of video games. perry, matt, joe, devon, mason and eric all played at some point i think. i refilled matt's drink for him, and thought i was funny by stopping between him and the teevee and making him lose. perry and matt like video games too much, i've decided. and, perry screams like a girl.

while they were playing video games, more people started arriving. first was kristy (i spelled her name wrong before, i'm a jerkus.), sarah, and scott. and they're all so nice! i made them drinks, and we all sat on the couch and watched the video game playing while i kept suggesting we leave, because i'm always paranoid about getting to studio on time. but, no one listened to me. RIGHT before we left, adam showed up, and he drank like, three drinks in five minutes to catch up. then, we herded everyone together and began the trek downtown.

it was a death defying trek, thanks in part to jaywalking, people running red lights, and everyone except me and matt and perry being slow fat bunnies. at least three times our group got separated on two different sides of an intersection. i think once we managed to actually have people on THREE of the corners at an intersection... and we got honked at once, at least. but, at last, we reached studio. and bought pitchers. and sat down and talked. and some people played pool, and mason smoked all my cigarettes. and matt and sarah (and maybe kristy?) went on a cigarette run and saved the day. this is also about when mattydee came up to adam and told him to deal with his friend, then mattydee came and asked me to help, and i did. then, after waiting for a cab forEVER, i left drew with adam and went inside so i could go to the bathroom... the story on drew is, apparently he got arrested for public intox for passing out in the bathroom's at the dorms. now, i don't like this rule. adam gets arrested three feet from his dorm room, drew gets arrested in his bathroom... albeit, the floor's bathroom... but STILL... doesn't it seem like maybe instead of arresting them, they could be like "hey, go pass out in your room." it's not like they're breaking windows at brothers, or molesting people on the ped mall, or passing out on benches downtown... *Sigh* stupid people. anyways...

then, the drag show started. and... it was... eh, alright. dena, vanessa, and... honey? yeah, i think honey. (sidenote: i just sneezed on myself, i'm so hot.) aaaah, anyways, the drag show was not the best i've seen, but also not the worst. it was decent. dena should have talked more, in my opinion.

after the drag show, i danced with perry. and i think i must have looked surprised the entire time, because i WAS. i was like "wooo! i feel like dancing!" and then i was like "whoa, perry's dancing? no way." then, i was like "what the heck? perry's dancing with me?!" i'm gonna get perry drunk every chance i get from here on out. (and no matt, not because i'm in love with him, but because he's so FUN! and, NORMAL! when he's drunk. maybe i should just try to convince him to be more relaxed. hrm. ANYhow...) yeah, danced with perry, and like, nine million gay boys. at some point in the evening i remember talking to brock, and i also remember thinking that we are hilarious.

at this point, i'd reached the perfect level of meganstudiodrunkeness, where i just ran around and talked to everyone i know, and danced with people, and let tammy draw a bunny on me, aaand, ate some of tammy's jelly beans... at one point, i helped another person who was puking in the alley. but, they knew how to party... so, it was puke and rally. and they did an awesome job of it. i forget their name, but... good job, you! and... eric left us at some point... as did mason and perry... and joe...? maybe not, who was playing pool with matt at the end of the night? there was someone aside from heff, right? (oh, and heff showed up. and ended up driving us around. woot!) anyways. end of the night, i sat and talked with tammy and sarah while matt played pool.

then, brief stop at afties, which i apparently just FOUND... josh gave us his address, but i forgot the apartment number. and somehow, i randomly picked a floor, and then picked a door... and i was right. and i'd never even been there before. i was in the hallway, and i was all frusterated, because i didn't know josh's apt #, so, i just turned a door knob at random. and it opened, and i was like "AH!" and ran down the hall to hide. but, it was josh's! yay! it was boring though, because josh got too drunk to drag everyone over, and for some reason we left studio before getting people together... or maybe, we just got there before everyone because we had a ride, and it was a ways away. *shrug* anyhow, we went home.

back at matt's, matt broke his lamp, perry came in to see what the noise was and saw me naked. matt drew two tattoo's on my back... and then, i apparently passed out, and matt went to sleep on the couch. then, i woke him up the next morning and sent him to work. and then he left for madison, and he'll be back today some time. but i don't know when. and he doesn't have service at his parent's house, so i can't call him. and i'm online, so he can't call me. doh. well. hopefully he'll message me, or just show up or something. ok. i'm off for now, but, if we go out tonight, i promise a wonderful account of our escapades tomorrow.

Date:	2005-03-26 16:34
Subject:	ah, last night.
Security:	Public
Mood:	myeh.
Music:	nothing

so. matt and i made a booze run at 6:30 or so... returned at 7:00ish, and we all began drinking/waiting for people to arrive. joe and devon got there first, and matt and perry and mason and eric all played video games and stuff... while i drank, and stood between matt and the teevee, because i'm so awesome. then sarah and cristie (not kristie who is super bibletastic, and hates me) arrived, with scott. and they were cool. and i heart both sarah and cristie times ten. and sarah danced to sweet caroline with me, because matt's a jerk, and wouldn't dance with me. oh, and adam showed up right after sarah and cristie.

let's see... first, we all got pitchers, and started a drinking... adam's friend drew had drank an entire bottle of southern comfort, and was puking in the bathroom.... and i somehow ended up taking care of him with adam, which resulted in the token megan quote of the evening... "adam...i don't even know this person, and i have to pee" ... and that was that. then, the drag show, vanessa taylor is in love with matt, and kept assaulting him. i made both perry and mason tip dena... aaand, fun was had by all. after the show, we all danced, and i danced with perry for like, ever. and it was enjoyable. and then? i don't really remember anything from 11-1... because all the captain i'd had, plus at least two pitchers, started catching up. oh, except mason and perry deciding whether or not to leave and get food, and for some reason i was out in the alley with them, then i was like "this doesn't have anything to do with me, and i'm cold. bye." at 1:00 they announced 1.50 calls. so we had some more captain and cokes, and i chatted with sarah. and matt played pool, and then heff came by, and ended up driving me and matt everywhere. and then we went to josh's for afterhours, and i had a shot, and a beer? and ended the evening REALLY wasted. for some reason, matt was sleeping on the couch this morning. which was odd. i apparently kicked him out of his room? or he got mad and left? neither of us remembers. but, he got up, and headed off to work. where he is now. and i'm lonely, because he's not home. boo. and, he's leaving for whatchamacallit tonight. ah, madison. yes.

a bunch of people have had this survey over the past few weeks. and i'm bored, so i finally broke down and filled it out.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Megan
2. George (only in marching band)
3. Sallah Livingston IV

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. MeganOfDoom
2. veryloudbeep
3. isayCestLaVie

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my sense of humor
2. my eyes
3. my height

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my drug habits
2. my stomach
3. my laziness

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Luxembourgem
2. Irish
3. German

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. zombies
2. fish
3. overly relgious people

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: (aside from the obvious)
1. my blankies
2. matt
3. cigarettes?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS (at the moment):
1. Stuart Davis
2. Green Day
3. Bree Sharp

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (at the moment):
1. Since You've Been Gone - kelly clarkson
2. Good Weird - stuart davis
3. Easter - stuart davis

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Working (heh, caleb and i are both lazy losers)
2. Moving somewhere new
3. Dieting in a non deathly way

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. someone to put up with my nerdiness.
2. someone who thinks i'm funny.
3. at least SOME common interests.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. hair
2. eyes
3. smile

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. writing
2. going out
3. computering

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. smoke a cigarette
2. eat something
3. yell at a certain person

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. bum
2. something with computers
3. english teacher

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. New York
2. London
3. California

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Kathleen
2. Idina
3. Harrison

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Live in colorado
2. Have kids
3. Go on a coast to coast road trip

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i kiss girls
2. i'm mean to prospective love interests for no reason
3. i can drink like a motherfucker

THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i wear a lot of make up
2. i like girly drinks
3. I kiss boys

THREE CRUSHES (current or past):
1. matt doran, in high school
2. ben paul, in high school (and forever, baby ^_~)
3. matt. oh wait, not matt, i meant the lead singer of troubled hubble. ^_^ (matt's so gonna smack me)

Date:	2005-03-22 17:52
Subject:	*grawr*
Security:	Public
Mood:	weird

it's hard to convey what i want to convey... but i'll try. grrrumble arrrgh, stupid errrgh, hypocritcal grumble grumble. that's seriously what i just did.

i'm ... errrgh. see, i can't even speak (type.) people, are... annoying. and... hypocritcal, and uninformed, and judgemental, and hypocritcal some more, and stupid. and i don't want to continue, because that would be hypocritical of me. though, i thought about actually saying something, to the person, to break the whole "i'm going to livejournal and not actually confront people" trend, but decided that in this situation, it would furter complicate matters, due to aforementioned grumble inducing people.

in other news... i went out for wings with matt today. and they were good. and i smeared maple bbq sauce all over his face. because i'm such a sweet girl. we were the only people in the vine for like... a half hour after we got there. and for the first time ever, matt didn't complain about not liking his french fries. and, he actually ATE them. it was amazing. conversation covered... the fact that matt sits like he's a little kid (look at him sometime, when he sits down, he looks like a four year old, it's so cute.), complaining about annoying people from high school (bad proms, etc etc), aaaand discussing how weird our families are. i think mine's weirder. being that we're having a week long family reunion this summer, and every individual family has to come up with an act for the talent show. and, we're having a bohlke family rodeo at the end of the week. and... well, i have my aunt beth. and she just trumps everything when it comes to weird family stuff.

i was really mad at matt this morning, because he did not take my zombie nightmare seriously. but, he apologized after i pouted about it. it was a really scary nightmare! like... it was me... and like, two other random people, and we were in this diner, that was on the ground floor of a fairly tall building downtown in some city. and, we opened the door, to let another non zombie in, and we were like, scrounging around for food to take up to our hideout upstairs. and somehow, like... the person we'd just let in was needed upstairs, to like... fix something, or put out a help signal, and we had to get them up there as soon as possible. but they hadn't eaten in days, and were really weak, so the other two people started helping her up the stairs (it was a huuuuge staircase, like the one in ghostbusters) and, i stayed downstairs, and was like, stocking up on food as fast as i could so i could get back upstairs. then, right as i was getting the last thing, the door broke down, because all the zombies had followed the person we let in earlier. and they all started coming in. and they weren't like... the lumbering zombies, they were like, 28 days later zombies that are all crazy and flailsome and scary. so, i took off up the stairs, and was running, and running and running. and i was screaming, and they were really scary, and like, grabbing me... and i woke up *right* before i actually started screaming. last time i had a zombie dream that bad, i scared the crap out of benny and his roommate. and benny didn't sleep the rest of the night because i kept flailing around and pseudo screaming. lucky for matt (and mason and perry), i realized it was a dream and woke up in time.

then, after that, i had ANOTHER bad dream... only like, it was at studio, and it was like, the staff from a year ago or so... and i was working there ... and like, coat check was upstairs, where the drag room is. only, the stairs went up a lot farther... and ben kock was working coat check, which would NEVER happen. ANYways. i was working door? i think? and like, there were all these people doing coke, and there was a fucking TON of it, and they were just giving it away. and i was like, at first, torn between kicking them out, and hanging out with them, then i kicked them out, but then, the coke wasn't really coke. and everyone was all sick, and crazy. and like, ben and i were trying to control things. and i was running upstairs to get him, and the stairs were so packed at the top that i couldn't move, and like, him and tristan were pulling me into coat check so i could get away from everything. and that's when matt woke me up.

and that's the story of my weird dreams. tada! the end!

Date:	2005-03-15 12:27
Subject:	ides of march! ooooh!
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated

ok, i only opened livejournal so i could bitch about blogger. SOMEthing is wrong, and it's pissing me off, so i'm gonna post my blogger post here, since the only thing i can get with blogger is the message "waiting for blogger" and... i've been waiting a fair amount of time, and am now super annoyed.

so, on ward to the post i wrote like, a half hour ago and have been waiting for ever since.

i was gonna blog about this awesome foxtrot cartoon from like... the last ides of march, but i can't find it, and i don't really remember it. but it was funny! i promise!


ok, i had something else typed, but matt's keyboard is possessed, and randomly started just... typing 1's, all by itself. and i tried to delete them, and they just kept coming! omg. that reminds me... when i was in like junior high my cousin patrick and i would always be like "attack of the x's!" or something to that effect... and we'd like, send three ims of "xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx" (only like, times 100) and we'd be all "Aaaah! the x's!" i had completely forgot about that until now, but i remember being VASTLY amused by it. hopefully patrick will comment and refresh my memory, because i really only have a vague recollection of the hilarity that was me and patrick. oh WAIT! maybe that wasn't me and patrick, maybe that was me and emily, and it's definitely wasn't the x's, it was the w's! oh my god, i cannot remember anything more, except that it was HILARIOUS.


matt is being a grumpy bunny because he got up late, through no fault of mine. i woke him up multiple times, as did his alarm clock. and, i've been sitting at the computer for a good two hours now, and his phone's rang at least once. he doesn't believe any of this, but i tell you all, i am right, and he is wrong. he's also being really whiney, so i yelled at him and told him to go take a shower. (actually, i think that would be more accuratly described as... he tried to pat me on the head, and i whipped him with a blanket and told him to stop reading over my shoulder and take a shower. then he left for the shower, and i yelled at him again when he came back for a towel. you don't DESERVE towels!)

ok, i just asked my cousin emily, and it was in fact, the W's, and also the @'s. and, i really can't tell you much more, except that we would rapid fire send entire ims of just @'s or W's.... and that we did it all the time, and that BOTH of us were just laughing about it. i really don't know *why* we did this... oh well, we're now reminiscing. man, we were hilarious. i'm pretty sure we still are, actually.

so, matt's supposed to leave for wisconsin this afternoon at some point, but he has all this crap to do, and he has to change heff's oil. and, he's been hitting the snooze button for like two hours, while i yell at him from across the room at the computer. because the alarm is SO FREAKEN LOUD. i'm not even sleeping, and it wakes me up every time it goes off (actually, i jump everytime it's gone off. and matt just lays in bed. and i have to throw something in that general direction, and be like TURN OFF THE ALARM. which he does. then goes back to sleep. grrr.)

i'll quit bitching. i'm sorry. it's just that i've been trying to read and type and stuff for two hours, and every twenty minutes or so, i get the crap scared out of me. and i'm so over that.

stupid smart ftp is being stupid. i hate that program, smart ftp my ASS.

also, blogger, you make me want to die. WORK dammit!!

Date:	2005-03-12 21:41
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	geeky

1) Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought: smokes, a tank top, and... two drinks at the bar.
2) Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink: robbie specials, long islands, bacardi and diet (when i'm feeling fat), and... water. to counter act the effects of the other three
3) Last time you Cried: the last time i talked to graham. grr.
4) What's In Your CD Player?: franz ferdinand
5) What's Under Your Bed?: nothing, the box spring sits on the floor, because we broke the bed frame while assembling it.
6) What Time Did You Wake Up Today?: i woke up like, four different times today. starting with when matt went to work.
7) Current Hair? needs to be dyed SO badly.
8) Current Clothes? my dark blue jeans and a white tee shirt. and my star necklace.
9) Current Desktop Picture? i dunno. i'm on matt's computer.
10) Current Worry? lots of things.
11) Current Hate? lots of things.
13) Least Favorite Place?: i dunno?
14) If You Could Play An Instrument?: if i could play anything, i'd prolly wanna play guitar
15) Favorite Colors?: green and pink
16) How Tall Are You?: 5'6''
17) Favorite expression?: i dunno? (sorry i'm so boring... all my answers are i dunno.)
18) One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To? maybe curtis?
19) Favorite Day(s)?: days that i don't have anything to do. or else, days that i get to go see renata and rent and stuff.
20) Where Would You Like To Go? new york
21) Where do you want to live when you get married?: i don't know? i can think of where i want to get married, but i've never thought about where i'd be living when/if that ever happens.
22) Favorite food? potatos
23) Color of most clothes you own? i have lots of multi colored stuff. prolly pink and black.
24) Number of pillows you sleep with?: my bed has seven pillows on it. but i really only need my one favorite one.
25) What do you wear when you go to sleep? it depends on the state i'm in when i fall asleep.
26) What were you doing 12AM last night? watching videos with matt.
27) How old will you be in 10 yrs? 31
28) What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?: dunno? maybe teaching? ideally i'd like to be a stay at home mom. so i can harrass my children and pets and amuse myself all day long.
29) Do you have braces?: nope, i used to though.
30) Are you paranoid?: not really.
31) Burn or tan?: burn. always.
32) What is the brand of your wallet? i don't know? it's like.. black. and long, and clutch like.
33) piercing/tattoo? three holes in each ear.
34) First enemy? hmmm. sarah something. she tried to steal my best friend. stupid bitch.
36) Last crush? the lead singer of troubled hubble
37) Last thing you ate?: a your pick two at panera
39) Last time you had sex? about 16 hours ago.
40) If you could be with anyone right now, who would it be? i guess matt. but i am with him right now. and he just dropped his phone on his face (he was laying down, and dropped it on his face. it was kinda funny.)

Date:	2005-03-09 01:59
Subject:	woot.
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	zero 7 - the waiting line - garden state soundtrack.

i'm reading twist magazine, and it is hilarious.

hmm. i'm only writing here because i feel like i've posted four billion times on my blog tonight. and i thought maybe i should post here. since i said i was gonna try for regular posts, and i haven't posted since then.

it's hard though, since blogging is so superior to livejournaling. i just can't get used to it.

something else i can't get used to is yahoo messenger. it is very odd to me. but i like the web cam part of it. but i'm just so much more used to aim, that i like it more.

ok, that's all for now, if i have anything else random or interesting... or uninteresting for that matter, i'll be back.

Date:	2005-02-25 09:31
Subject:	holy cow
Security:	Public
Mood:	apathetic
Music:	green day - american idiot

hello.

i used to only post on lj when i was sad or grouchy, and i'd lock my posts so like... kyle and renata and everyone were the only ones that could read them. but, yeah. i don't know why i'm updating here instead of my blog. i guess is just felt like it.

i need to go find my good lj icons. but they're all on my old computer. which is at my apartment. where aj is. and i don't want to go down there. dammit. also, i need to freakin find someone to sublet so i can leave. because i hate my life when i live there. (or, in order to not hate my life i drink excessivly, which is so easy because i can walk down to the bars. and that's bad. and then i spend weeks at a time in a chemically altered state.) anyways, lj icons. mine are boring because they're like, four years old. stupid icons.


so. this is the beginning of what i hope to be regular posts here. this is not the *third* time that i've attempted to start up a second slightly more "for me" blog. so, i guess we'll see if it's as big of a success as the other two times. so, on that note, i'm gonna mess with my lj accound for awhile and see what i come up with.